september entry.

another of many entries

-a thought-

hello, happy new week. I know, I am corny as hell. Mais c’est pas mal. I was deep in thought this weekend, as I seldom are, and realized the only way this segment I have would work was if I uploaded something every week or even every day. I mean could I do that?

on average I get about 10 different thoughts a day that I stop myself from pursuing. however, I would like to change that. so, I was thinking what if I wrote down and explored every thought I ever I had in a day, on this segment? just picture it, I get a thought and, because I take my laptop with me everywhere, I pull it out and start typing. it sounds so fictional I love it.

recently my thoughts have been occupied with what could be possible reasons to why I talk myself out of doing a lot of things. this past weekend I almost did not attend a bird summit event, because I nearly talked myself out of it, and the thing is while I was there I just kept thinking about how grateful I was for not listening to myself. so, when I think to what could have really made me this way, there is definitely one scenario that stands out.

I remember a very ill-intended chat I had with someone, during my one of formative years, who told me I needed to say things in my head before I spoke because apparently I always expressed myself bluntly. I am not sure what my thoughts were like before that conversation, but I definitely remember being cautious as well as self-conscious of the way I expressed myself after that.

could that be the reason, could that be my why or am I reaching. either ways that’s what i’ve been trying to uncover lately.

-pictures-

an outfit.